My Personal Testimony ^_^

It all started when...

A close friend said that in church that

day, "Pastor Andy discussed finding

a prayer partner, an accountablity

partner." Even though I felt as if

I wouldnt be much help to her

considering she was farther along

in her spiritual walk than I,

I agreed to it. She too knew that

we were unequally yoked and

that she had a lot of work to do. lol

In that moment however, I didnt

understand exactly what it was that I

had just agreed to until THIS very

moment. I told her she set me up!!

She told me it was my fault for agreeing

to a job without researching the position

first. TRUE!! lol Several months later..

HERE I STAND!!

Ready...

and she got exactly what she

wanted/needed or should I say,

we got exactly what WE needed.

That harmless conversation in

passing several months ago was

only the begining....

the begining of ME..

Thank you Amanda♥

Although my talents supercede my frame..Anyone who knows me knows that modeling has been my passion since 2004. I LOVE to model and I LOVE the creativity of a collaboration between a model, photographer, stylist, and makeup artist. Its like magic!! lol The possibilities/opportunities are endless. However the art and creativity that is captured can often be perceived differently than the intended purpose. Because of industry standards that I am unable to realistically meet, it limits me to few avenues in the modeling industry. These avenues however are not apart "my dream". A dream is not meant to be put in place to accept what you can get or to half step. "All or nothing!" A dream is implemeted with the idea that you wont stop until you make it to the top. I'm unwilling to half step my dream/passion and settle for less in any aspect of my life and im unwilling to sacarifice my soul even for my passion. Romans 14:12-21 for this reason among others I have chosen to no longer model as of August 2009. I will move as the Lord will have me to move in the hopes that in everything I do or touch.. through me, you all will see God ..

Since I have decided to to follow another path it left me wondering "what do I do now?", "whats next?", "whats left?" My current job has been very stressful the entire year and some change that I have been there, although I love what I do...so at this point I felt as if I had no clue what my purpose was/is. If you have read my blog posts from August 13-16, then you know during that time I took a trip to West VA for a TD Jakes confrence, "The Birthing Place." The entire confrence was centered around walking in your destiny and birthing new talents and gifts. I swear every serman preached by every speaker/pastor there, I CRIED! lol Everything that they spoke on reconfirmed and removed any doubts that had crossed my mind about the decisons I had recently chosen to make concerning my path and Christian walk. EVERY DAY since that Thursday that the confrence started on, up until way beyond the confrence was over I had recieved a sign/message from God continuously reconfirming the decisions I made and the blessings to come.

That Sunday a close friend of mine droped a word from God in my lap, "God told me to tell you that those trials and people you were facing that you thought were the enemy or the devil working against you, was in fact God. Squeezing your talents and gifts out of you. "BIRTHING" new things in you to get you to the next level in your spiritual life as well as physical life." Again, I CRIED!! on the spot lol..

That Monday another close friend of mine txt me and told me that she had a horrible dream about me the night before. So horrible that she woke up crying! In her dream she said that I died of a disease and the funeral was on my birthday. My birthday is coming up in November so it scared her even more. This year I will be 27 years old ^_^ In the bible the number seven is a very significant number, it signifies completion. So when I heard this dream that brought one of my closest friends to tears, fear did not move through my body but excitement and JOY!!! Yet another confirmation, Yet another word from God is what I heard. For in my 27th yr on this earth my death in her dream signifies the death of the old Crystal and the birth of the new! HALLELUJAH!! I had to shout on that.lol Despite my disobedience or my unfinished progress Gods blessings and favor in my life is very clear. Like Jonah, God took my disobedience and turned it into my destiny. I'm testifying to being a work in progress able to clearly see and feel the ecstasy in being a servant for the Lord. Its true that when you walk in the way of the Lord nothing can harm you and ALL things work out for your good.

The part of my story that blows my mind is knowing that I am not even near where I should be or where I know God is taking me to, yet I recieve much favor thus far..I can not even fathem the blessings that are to come!! So I said all of that to say this:

I was willing to DIE to modeling and whatever else it took in order to get to where God wants me to be. (Revalations 12:11) As a result I am BIRTHING "past due promises" as Pastor Sheryl Brady said. I encourage all of you to step out on faith and be willing to DIE to the things keeping you from a personal relationship with God.

LET GO & LET GOD!

Whose I am preceedsWhat I am & that is my self realization. Therefore, I no longer belong to the situations around me, I belong to God so my situations around me cannot control me..